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Been reading two books by Native American writers.  Native Historians Write Back. Edited by Susan A Miller & James Riding In, 2011. Texas Tech University Press.

I Tell You Now, Autobiographical Essays by Native American Writers. Edited Swann & Krupatm, 1987. University of Nebraska Press Lincoln & London.  Simon Ortiz, Mary Tall Mountain, Carter Revard, Duane Niatum, Joy  Harjo, Linda Hogan & other writers.

List of some essays from Native Historians Write Back.  Donna L. Akers, Removing the Heart of the Choctaw People, Indian Removal from a Native Perspective.

Decolonizing the 1862 Death Marches, Waziyatawin Angela Wilson, Dakota.

Chairmen, Presidents and Princesses Navajo Nation Gender and the Politics of Tradition, Jennifer Nez Denetdale.

Seminoles and African under Seminole Law, Sources and Discourses of Tribal Sovereignty and Black Indian Entitlement, Susan A. Miller.

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I Tell You Now, Autobiographical Essays by Native American Writers. Edited Swann & Krupat. 1987. U of Nebraska Press Lincoln & London.  Simon Ortiz, Mary Tall Mountain, Carter Revard, Duane Niatum, Joy  Harjo, Linda Hogan & other writers.

I met Mary Tall Mountain once through Alfred an Italian guy apart of the American Indian Studies Program-UCLA. He knew Zoila Cruz who was apart of Am Indian Studies Program, too. I met him when I attended UCLA film school. He introduced me to Mary Tall Mountain  in San Francisco.  She was a very kind person.  I read through news that she passed away.  Sad. Alfred got around all right.  He met different types of people.

Some of the other writers from the I Tell You Now book I have met.

As I read the two books I idealized and thought—Native American filmmakers and First Nations filmmakers could write essays about films, their films and videos get them published like Cahiers du Cinema.  My ideas are over looked such as Tourquoise Filmmaker: Indigenous Women Screening & Dialogue Conference which I continue to look money for.  I say this because I do not receive feedback about it? Why not write essays about the Indigenous in video, cinema, documentaries and dramas? Why not?  I do it on my own and publish essays on line on my blog visualeye.wordpress.com. I will never give up trying to get Tourquoise Filmmaker done, but it is hard.  Another idea, for Native Americans filmmakers in US and First Nations filmmakers in Canada, write auto biographical essays about themselves.  Be so interesting to read the essays from their point-of-view, various and different. Wouldn’t that be cool. I think it would be!

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Life of Pi Directed by Ang Lee, 2012.  Written by David Magee.  Based upon novel Yann Martel

Twice viewed Life of Pi to understand film better.  I like topics about cats, household or big cats.  In the film the Bengal tiger, Richard Parker looked realistic enough, although most all of the animals were animated.  It didn’t matter to me if the story was real or not. I’ve always wondered if that could happen with a wild animal like a big cat tiger. Maybe it could.  Maybe that’s why. As I viewed the film I looked into Richard Parker’s eyes, the Bengal tiger’s eyes like a household cat.  I am aware a person’s not supposed to stare straight into the eyes of a cat, but I did it once with my cat Ninja Pants.  She swatted me. Cats return the gaze.

Pi Patel stemmed from a family who had a zoo at a park somewhere in a town in India.  Eventually Pi meets a girl he likes. In political turmoil in the town, the family decides to leave and take the animals with them on a cargo ship to Canada or America.  Pi has to leave a girl he met behind. Suddenly during a night on the ship Pi hears noise. It walks to find out what’s it or wrong.  He sees a huge storm full of heavy rain and 100 foot waves.  At the same time, water fills the ship fast.  A zebra swims in ocean through hallway.  Zebra escapes.  Pi reaches higher level. Crew leaves ship.  He sees them. Pi wants to tell his parents to come but the crew won’t let him.  He can’t.  They push him onto a lifesaving boat quickly.  A zebra jumps from second floor onto boat.  Boat moves in big waves, storm and floats away.  Ship sinks.  His parents and brother die. 

Animals still alive swim to boat where Pi sits: tiger, orangutan, and hyena.  Zebra is hurt and lies down all the time.  Eventually hyena kills the zebra.  The tiger leaps and kills the hyena after the hyena kills the orangutan.  Pi likes the female orangutan.  Hyena is meanest of the creatures there, but at same time, if these creatures lived on the land, it is normal for them in what they do, prey on each other for food. 

Eventually tiger is only survivor with Pi. 

He learns to get along with him.  The tiger growls a lot like a wild cat.  Pi uses a whistle to tell him to come over and makes commands. 

Pi looks for food for the tiger. 

One time a bunch of flying fish fly onto their boat. They eat the fish. At last they have many fish to eat.

Pi catches a big fish and gives it to tiger. He says he knows he has to find food for tiger.

Huge storm so big nearly kills both of them.  Big waves throw Pi and tiger around in boat.  Tiger becomes sick.  Pi walks over to tiger at his weakest places tiger’s head  onto his thigh. 

One time Pi’s boat lands somewhere on an island.  He walks on island to investigate.  Right as he walks off boat, he eats something green from the ground. So hungry.

Walks to where a bunch of creatures. They look like monkeys.  He finds a fresh water pond and swims.  Bengal tiger eventually jumps out and eats one of the monkey looking creatures for dinner. He brings blankets to top of trees to sleep at night.  At a certain time, the monkey looking creatures run onto tree branches where Pi sleeps to sleep with him. Tiger runs back to the boat to spend the night.  The animals sense a change.  Parker Tiger senses it too.  They know another presence will arrive or has arrived at night. Monkey looking creatures gather around him to sleep on branches.

At night Pi looks at water and views many fish dead swirling in water.  He opens flower and sees a tooth inside flower of plant.  The whole island breathes.  Pi said it was a carnivore.  The island ate life on the island.  He realized he and tiger cannot stay so the next day he picks up food supplies for tiger and himself. Whistles the whistle for the tiger.  They leave. Tiger jumps into boat to leave. 

I loved the ending of Pi and Richard Parker.  Eventually they reach Mexican coast.  Tiger leaps out of boat.  As so many people do, when you are around an animal, live with an animal; for example a household cat, human beings tend to treat an animal like another human being, imprinting characteristics about being a human onto the animal. In reality the household cat is a cat.  She/he cannot behave like a human.  But unlike the tiger, the household cat is domesticated.  Tigers can be domesticated too, ones who are raised among humans since kitten hood. Those cats feel emotions, are intelligent, react to a person who takes care of her/him like a human being.  For example, a household cat knows very well when she/he is being abandoned as when she/he leaves their home because I witnessed a big domestic cat being given away at the SPA.  I could tell the big cat sensed it.  Their bodies shake. Act scared. They curl up and hide out in a corner of the cage.  Our cat Ninja Pants acted that way when she knew she was out of her home element and in foreign territory.  Pi loved that cat although he was scared of him sometimes.  They made it together through thick and thin from being stranded in nature, the big huge ocean for many months.  Ocean has many emotions from moving silent without waves to creating huge 100 foot waves in rain and lightning. They were lucky to be found. He said, the tiger didn’t look back at him as he was carried off the beach by Mexican men the last time in the rescue.  The Tiger, Richard Parker paused but that was it, then he went off into the jungle.  Pi expected Richard Parker to look at him but he does not. He wanted to say, we did it and lived through it together.  The man cries when he said those lines at the end of the story about himself and the Richard Parker, the Bengal tiger.  

Otherwise Pi would have been lonely if he did not have tiger. He lost his parents. No one else in the world to be friends with except the Tiger. I feel the Tiger knew it too. They knew without speaking in English. 

When Pi was a little boy, he believed and said a person can see the soul of animal in the eyes of the animal.

What I liked: the natural life in the ocean such as the whale swimming to eat the plankton near Pi’s boat.  How the plankton sparkled and glowed.

How the carnivore island glowed and looked unusual. How it changed at night he found out. 

How the tiger looked real and acted realistic as a cat and big cat.

Pi didn’t want to kill that huge fish, but he did for food for the tiger.  After he killed the fish he felt bad and prayed to Krishna. Thank you for food for the tiger and I.  It reminded me a lot about praying for food when Indigenous hunt for food.

A tiger is huge. 

I liked the real versus the not real in the same story. 

Blue screen set up.   

Love stories about animals.  My favorite.   There were lots of favorite films seen this year but this is one of em.’ 

 

 

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During June and July I applied for a television producer position-Vision Maker Media and a Leslie Scalapino Award.  Both forced me to revise my resume and finish up-revise a drama been working on.

Haven’t taken many still photographs.  I am changing as a still photographer. Not much documentary still photography of things, except I still continue to shoot still photographs and videos of the Coho Salmon.  Never lets up.

Lots of movies I watch to get a better handle about the screenplay writing format.  Many of the feature dramas have different dramatic styles such as Prairie Home Companion, written by Garrison Kellor & directed by Robert Altman.  Also other feature dramas I have viewed and really liked: Fruitvale Station, My Son, Girl Model, Marley, Cog, Mountain Patrol, Muddy Waters and Rolling Stones, 1981, Life of Pi and others. So many I’ve viewed.  Glad to view them.

Life of Pi stood out, a feature drama, a reality mixed with surrealism.  I love stories about animals, especially Tigers.  The tiger animation was very realistically made.  Convincing.  It didn’t matter to me if the story was real or not. I’ve always wondered if that could happen with a wild animal like a big cat tiger. Maybe it could.  Maybe that’s why.

I loved the ending of Pi and Richard Parker.  Eventually reach Mexican coast.  Tiger leaps out of boat.  As so many people do, when you are around an animal, live with an animal; for example a household cat, human beings tend to treat an animal like another human being, imprinting characteristics about being a human onto the animal. In reality the household cat is a cat.  She/he cannot behave like a human.  But unlike the tiger, the household cat is domesticated.  Tigers can be domesticated too, ones who are raised among humans since kitten hood. Those cats feel emotions, are intelligent, react to a person who takes care of her/him like a human being.  For example, a household cat knows very well when she/he is being abandoned as when she/he leaves her/his home because I witnessed a big domestic cat being given away at the SPA.  I could tell the big cat sensed it.  The bodies shake. Acts scared.  Cat curls up and hides inward  in a corner of the cage where a cat is placed at SPCA.  Our cat Ninja Pants acted that way when she knew she was out of her home element and in foreign territory.  Pi loved that cat although he was scared of him sometimes.  They made it together through thick and thin from being stranded in nature, the big huge ocean for many months.  Ocean has many emotions from moving silent without waves to creating huge 100 foot waves in rain and lightning. They were lucky to be found. He said, the tiger didn’t look back at him as he was carried off the beach by Mexican men the last time when Pi was rescued.  The Tiger, Richard Parker paused but that was it. Then he went off into the jungle.  Pi expects Richard Parker to look at him but he does not. He wanted to say, we did it and lived through it together.  The man cries when he said that at the end of the story, he and the Richard Parker, the Bengal tiger.

Planning to go to Everett WA in a few weeks, but I wish I could travel way far away.

Yesterday I went to Newton Library to use the Internet, but I had wait for doors to open at 1 p.m. Sunday’s time.  I always view a woman at the library typing at the computer and using the Internet.  She was dressed in black yesterday. I saw a White woman who said I sighed too much there too.  At first when she asked that I said, You think I’m too anxious.  She said, I can hear you sigh.  Subtext – too much.  I said, well I can sing in a loud volume. I opened my arms wide when I said that, but continued with, but I won’t.  She did not reply.

A bunch of people were waiting for the door to open. I couldn’t stand it anymore so I said to the white woman dressed in black whom I see all the time, Wouldn’t you want to have your own Internet and computer?  She said, Sure.  I said, l hour and l/2 is short. If you do real serious work you need more time.  The white woman who said I sighed too much said, at Semiahmoo Library a person can use the Internet in one room and then go to the next room, use it  (more time).  The woman in black whom I see all the time said, I go to Strawberry Library to do that.  Woman who said I sighed too much said you get too many viruses on your computer.  I said, I had a Mac but it broke down. I never got viruses.  Never.  Ever.  I prefer the Mac over windows.  The woman who said I sighed too much said nothing. The doors opened. We went into our separate ways.

We stand around like that. I see some familiar people show up.  We express nothing to each other?  Why not say something? I wouldn’t have done that when I was 14. I was very shy and not assertive, but I am more assertive.  I never did that.  Too shy.  Mostly because I am lonely in Surrey.  I don’t talk to hardly anybody in Surrey.  People don’t want to talk to me. And it’s not because I am older. No.  It’s because I have something to say now. Also, I am lonely not able to speak to anybody besides Mark. I want to speak to other people.

When I finished the Internet at library, I biked across to 72nd Street.  Near the Newton bus loop, I saw Len one of the Squamish brothers, Indigenous brothers, whom  Mark and I met on Saturday.  Len looks Meti.  Here in Canada Meti is a mixture of French and Indigenous.  I met the other brother, Mike  before I met Len. Mike has dark skin like me, except I have darker skin.  When I saw Len near the bus loop on Saturday walking around I knew who he was.  Their mom and dad are mixed, Meti and Indigenous.  I recognized Len. I stopped him to talk to him.  I have said to people, BC don’t talk much to each other. People in BC are some of  most unfriendly bunch I ever met in my life. He said today’s events in the world causes it. It’s not spoken about on the news. I said that’s true.  About today’s events causes it, I said, I don’t know. I don’t think so. Turmoil has always been here.  I didn’t buy it.  He said, people in Edmonton, Alberta are friendlier.  Even the Americans are friendlier. I laughed when he said that. I said I have more friends in the US than here to know as friends.  I just don’t get it. Why is so difficult to make friends here.  I’ve tried for fourteen years? What gives?  After a certain point a person gives up.  That’s how I talk to everyone now days if I want to know what’s goin on.  How does everyone know what’s goin on? What’s the song? What’s it among people?  I am me.  Small talk doesn’t really do it for me with people, although sometimes I am forced to do it just to get people to talk. I get to the point.